Friday, September 11, 2009

Big Dreams in Small Packages


I've done it.
I've broken from the old and I'm starting fresh *HERE*
I know it sounds silly, but doing this has really been...an accomplishment.
I had a dream...
a dream I could say the things I wanted to
a dream I could be something, somebody
and for some reason, being those things meant starting this.

It's also been a little scary.
I want a new identity or I want the identity that I've always identified with.
A.Love
It's my not-really-an-alias, alias.
A.Love is this ME that is who I am and who I want to be.
She's been this inner me since I was 14.
It's not connected with hordes of last names that aren't mine.
It's not glued to being someone else's creation.
It's just...me.
I thought that she deserved a place to be those things.
A place to be a real wife.
A space to unwind the tattered mom I can be.
A spot to yell my heart out and not fear.
A place to just breathe without judgment.

So I here I am.
Celebrating a little...doing a little dance...and dimming the anxiety down
because although it's small
it's a big dream unfolding.
This.
This little place is my big dream.
Silly, no doubt, but it's mine.
image from creature comforts blog

15 comments:

  1. How very wonderful! Looking forward to finding out more about you and your dream, Thanks for your sweet comment on my blog, Have a sweet day! x

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  2. Allegra, you are truly adorable! I looooove how you write and I can't wait to see what this new blog has in store!!! Thank you so much for adding my button too!

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  3. Hi, Forgot to say, I take the photos myself, you can see all of them on flickr x

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  4. Loved this post. May you be able to express exactly who you are. What joy and freedom comes from that!

    Oh and thank you for you comment to my post yesterday. I loved it. Let's both get out there and enjoy God's presence through nature this weekend.

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  5. Yeah for you Sweetie, you so deserve to be who you want to be without fearing or anyone judging you...unfold you! love ya! Adding your new blog to my list!! :) muwahhh!

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  6. WAHOO!!! LOVE THIS!!! I AM SOOO EXCITED/PROUD FOR/OF YOU!!!

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  7. Clapping for YOU!!! dancing for YOU!!!
    xo,
    LuLu

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  8. this is absolutely beautiful!!
    i love this entry & so glad you dropped by.
    blessings to you!!
    ps--i'm a follower :)

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  9. i don't see anyone saying anything about the title!!
    maybe they don't get it yet?
    lololol
    xo

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  10. YES! This is the beginning...this is IT! Love you and am SOOOOOO PROUD/EXCITED! P.s. this song is fAnTaBulOuS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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  11. this blog seems very therapeutic.....

    have a wonderful weekend~

    chasity

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  12. This is so sweet...it's wonderful to feel free to express one's self!

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  13. Exactly what it was always supposed to be! I hope you find your true voice here!!!

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  14. Simply adore your blog! I could read and read and read~ You have a gift my friend,
    xx

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