The other night the hus and I were watching one of our TV shows through Netflix.
I know I've talked about my spiritual sensitivity before but I'm about to again.
An episode of the show came on and it was about voo doo.
I knew the instant it went there, I should have turned it off
but I did that thing
that thing where I tell myself I'm just being a baby and deal with it.
I told my husband,
"I feel weird. We shouldn't watch this."
The thing is, it doesn't affect him in the same way.
I talked to my soul sister and told her,
"I don't get how people can say 'it only affects you if you let it.'"
She reminded me that we all have our own spiritual battles.
What can be used against me may or may not be used against my husband.
I knew that because of what I have experienced in our home
because of what I have had to work so hard to pray out of my sons room
to pray out of our space
that letting a spiritual episode on voo doo run in our home was the wrong thing.
So why didn't I listen?
Why did I ignore what I felt was being impressed upon me?
Maybe because my husband wasn't feeling it?
Maybe because it felt crazy to let something "so little" bother me?
I am reminded though of something I learned awhile back--
when animals sense fear or something being off, they run.
Humans are the only living creature who keep walking at it telling themselves why they're being ridiculous.
We have a natural "flight" pattern built in us to tell us when we should turn the other way and seek safety and yet, we ignore it.
We as women are constantly aware of built in awareness--
whether we have to walk in a dark parking lot or get into a car where no one else is around
we are taught to constantly look over our shoulder
but here is an example of how I kept walking toward danger.
Lesson learned & hopefully never repeated!