Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Fill in the Blanks....

For some reason, something mindless like this post is just what I needed!

I am: currently reinventing my understanding of who I am and what loving/being loved really mean.
I think: I want to do and be more than I have time for.
I know: I am a good person with my own talents, but I often look out and wish they looked like someone else's.
I want: a plethora of crafting supplies and a room all my own.
I wish: I could give my husband and son more of me--more of the best of me--and still have time for myself.
I hate: folding laundry but have no problem with throwing it in the washer!
I miss: a lot of things, but mostly, freedom.
I fear: missing the moments that matter the most- a chance to say I love you or a new word from my son's mouth.
I feel: hungry for a denver omelette, like planning a two week trip to Italy, and crafting for an entire weekend!
I hear: William Fitzsimmons on my iTunes
I smell: Maple & Brown Sugar oatmeal
I crave: a little alone time with my husband in silence doing nothing and having nothing to do.
I search: on Etsy for things to create with way more often than I should.
I wonder: what Jesus feels when He looks at me.
I regret: not handling my transition into motherhood better.
I love: my family, to travel, write, dream, a good bargain, a hunt for vintage goods, my cousins-I don't think any one could understand how much I love them, SWEETS,
I ache: for all the things I want to be and endlessly fall short of this perfection I have deemed necessary and attainable.
I care: way too deeply what others think of me.
I always: leave my clothes on the hamper or my chaise lounge- I actually annoy myself when I do it.
I am not: aggressive.
I believe: I am loved. I am good.
I dance: a little in the car when a good song comes on.
I sing: ALL the time but love it most when it's with my husband on the floor of our son's room while he tries to put the guitar picks in the guitar.
I cry: at least once a month.
I don't always: eat very healthy. Woops.
I fight: myself more than anyone else could.
I write: to work my way through my heart.
I lose: everything I'm in need of at any given moment-keys, sunglasses, mind...
I never: want to travel back to the orient again.
I confuse: my son and husband's names all the time. Now they're both "babe" and I just hope the right one listens to me.
I listen: to music and dissect lyrics daily. I love words.
I can usually be found: at a computer ;)
I am scared: I will never really understand my own worth.
I need: the ability to freeze time and do all there is to do in life without missing anything!
I am happy about: celebrating my 2nd 4th Wedding Anniversary to my husband on Thursday. ;) (I'll wait and see how many of you ask me about this one ;)
I hope: my son will be a Godly man who never wonders whether or not he was LOVED.


  1. Love, love, love this list!! I would not call it mindless as I would have to think long and hard at the answers I would give.... maybe if I did not over analyze them and speak what is in my heart at the time... hmm ~ something to ponder for sure. I will not disappoint and I will ask about the 2nd - 4th thing....

  2. Awesome list and I too am curious about the 2nd - 4th anniversary..:)

  3. looooooooooooooooove this!!!!! and I know what you mean about loving your cousins...I feel it too!


  4. I loved reading this. We have a lot in common. I think you write what a lot of people feel.

  5. Great list - I can identify with much of what you shared,,,
    in particular:

    i think
    i wish
    i hate (though it's the putting away that vexes me most! our laundry sits nicely folded in baskets for WAY too long)
    i love
    i write
    i can usually be found

    are all so true of me too...the fact that you worry over your role as a mama speaks volumes to the fact that you are probably amazing at it. Be encouraged, your son was entrusted to you for a reason - YOU have all the resources you need within you (in addition to the help of the holy spirit) to meet the needs of your little one. I'm also feeling stretched in the freedom area, but I'm trying to focus on the fact that this time in my childrens life is but a season that will pass all to quickly when seen on the other side of it.

    Make sure to get some time to yourself at least once a week to indulge in your interests - you'll be a better mama if you do. I've found that when I tend to my own needs in a balanced way I'm more available and authentically engaged mind and heart to my loved ones.

  6. What a wonderful list! I'm inspired to write my own and see what I learn about myself. If you're celebrating two 4ths, you may have followed the route my DB and I did... we just celebrated our 1st, and are about to celebrate the 10th! :)

    Have a wonderful day,


  7. I've reread your list 3 times... what a wonderful list to come up with... i loved that you shared this.... i want to sit down and write one myself... i'm so curious of what you come out of me. I'm so glad to know you mix up your hubby and son's name.... i do the same thing and know i've added our dog into the "whose name i'm trying to get right".

  8. I LOVE this post! I love your honesty. I love your spontaneity. I love your heart. Thank you, thank you, thank you for sharing!

  9. Love the list, you are amzing and talented beyond words!

    As I will be on vacation for the next few days and not able to tell you..
    Happy Anniversary (again)- dont have to explain to me ;)

  10. You are absolutely amazing...to know all of this about yourself, I think you know who you are more then you give yourself credit for!!! I LOVE YOU!
    p.s. come to the flea in March, I am going to go be there for sure!!! xoxoxo

  11. i.
    you are amazing ..just amazing.

  12. I, too, love this. Not everyone in blogland is so honest and puts themselves out there like that. I think it's refreshing when people do. Thank you for sharing.

  13. Oh, you precious girl! I just kept reading thinking, "Me too!" Thanks for sharing with such sweet honesty! I look forward to reading more! And am glad I found you through Still Waters.

  14. Thanks for sharing and for your honesty...its refreshing to know that in different places and at different stages in life we all can share and learn from each other...I celebrate the fact that you are having a 2nd 4th anniversary! We will be celebrating our 24th this year and its true that marriage is a committment!...not always easy but so worth it!

  15. What a beautiful list. Thanks for sharing!