Friday, April 30, 2010

A letter to myself...

Dear Self,

You use to come here often. You use to write and you'd leave feeling like you could move forward, move on, move up, but we haven't talked in awhile. I'm not sure where you've been, but I've missed you. I know the road through life has ups and downs. I know you've been walking an up and down road for the last few months, but I want to tell you a few truths amidst the lies that try to defeat you:
You are loved.
You are worthy.
You are worth loving.
I think you forget these things. I watch you get caught up in looking out and seeing those greener pastures and they bring you down. I watch you trip but it's time to pick yourself back up. Stop looking at all the books you've bought and letting them collect dust. Pick them up, read them like you planned. Start living again because you and I both know there is SO much to live FOR.
Take a minute- count your blessings. Recognize your truths:
-You have an INCREDIBLE husband who's gifts of patience and endurance fill in where you are weak.
-You have a beautiful son who's perfectly healthy. Nickname him Evil Spawn if it makes you laugh, but realize, he LOVES you and he just wants to be understood.
-Remember, you act a lot like your son when you feel misunderstood or when you are misunderstanding the "Not Yet's" in life as "No's"
-You are creative. It will never match the talents of others, it will only be yours and what you can do.
-People are just people. Stop fighting the reality of who people are and start accepting them how they are. In the wake of those realities, do what you need to do to take care of you because no one else is going to do it for you.
-You have some amazing friends and some amazing family members. Get back in touch with them. Give what you don't have: energy, and you will find it again.
-Forgive & move forward.

You started this year with a mantra, this year would be THE YEAR OF INTENTION. Resurface your heart and keep fighting. This life's a good one and your God is a GREAT God. Stand up-Worship-FIGHT every day for truth!

Welcome back, self. I've missed you!


  1. I'VE missed you too! You are, by far, my favorite blog to stalk. Pleeeease start posting with the frequency you used to, because I have missed your words so! You are inspiring and funny and so very real- I don't like the days where I don't get to learn from you friend! xoxo

  2. you are real, and it's refreshing.

  3. I've missed you, too! And I think we all struggle with the "greener pastures" thing...especially on the blog circuit. Let's just decide that our own pasture is the greenest! :)

  4. Welcome back!
    I've missed reading your posts too, I love the way your write.
    Happy weekend!

  5. Lovely post. Keep reading it and allow it to sink it -- you are wonderfully talented and perfect just the way you are.

    I've missed your posts.

  6. Love this.
    Hope you're having a good weekend.

  7. beautiful!
    & can i just ditto shannan because that is so true.
    bless you today girlie

  8. you're amazing! have a beautiful week! xo susan