The human truth is that I don't like how I feel today.
I'm exhausted and that exhaustion has me hearing lies.
Lies that make me want to cry, shout, and give in to the worldlyness of life right now.
I feel a bit like a toddler: "I.DON'T.WANT.TO"
And as much as I want to cave, crumble, crawl away, & curl up today: I'm fighting.
I have a friend--that's not even a good term--she's God's gift to my heart.
She encouraged me last week as she spoke about her counseling classes and I took an assignment on as my own:
For every lie I heard, find a scripture that counteracts the lie with truth.
So tonight I sat down and I thought about where my head was today and I decided... it sucked.
listen to my plea!I'm exhausted and that exhaustion has me hearing lies.
Lies that make me want to cry, shout, and give in to the worldlyness of life right now.
I feel a bit like a toddler: "I.DON'T.WANT.TO"
And as much as I want to cave, crumble, crawl away, & curl up today: I'm fighting.
I have a friend--that's not even a good term--she's God's gift to my heart.
She encouraged me last week as she spoke about her counseling classes and I took an assignment on as my own:
For every lie I heard, find a scripture that counteracts the lie with truth.
So tonight I sat down and I thought about where my head was today and I decided... it sucked.
I went to the Book of Truth and I found truth, shields really, to fight the lies that were out to destroy me today.
I even found MY prayer.
1 Hear my prayer, O Lord;
1 Hear my prayer, O Lord;
Answer me because you are faithful and righteous.
2 Don’t put your servant on trial,
for no one is innocent before you.
3 My enemy has chased me.
He has knocked me to the ground
and forces me to live in darkness like those in the grave.
4 I am losing all hope;
I am paralyzed with fear.
5 I remember the days of old.
I ponder all your great works
and think about what you have done.
6 I lift my hands to you in prayer.
I thirst for you as parched land thirsts for rain.
7 Come quickly, Lord, and answer me,
for my depression deepens.
Don’t turn away from me,
or I will die.
8 Let me hear of your unfailing love each morning,
for I am trusting you.
Show me where to walk,
for I give myself to you.
9 Rescue me from my enemies, Lord;
I run to you to hide me.
10 Teach me to do your will,
for you are my God.
May your gracious Spirit lead me forward
on a firm footing.
11 For the glory of your name, O Lord, preserve my life.
Because of your faithfulness, bring me out of this distress.
12 In your unfailing love, silence all my enemies
and destroy all my foes,
for I am your servant. ~ Psalm 143
Truth: I am loved, provided for, & worthy.
Truth is what I will cling to.
OMG! I've been so out of touch I didn't even know your were pregnant! CONGRATULATIONS!!! I am so happy for you- you have no idea!
ReplyDeleteAnd I only gained 21 lbs because I was on that crazy diabetes diet and then a high cholesterol diet, so I lost 7 and then regained it and didn't gain much in the last trimester.
Enjoying taking a peek at your blog!
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I adore your little family pic over to the right hand side... on the pier. Precious!!
I'm a Mama too...I have a 10 year old little boy and a 13 year old sweet growing up girl.
Congrats on your new upcoming family member... :)
Have a great week!
Beth
Richmond Va.
What a precious post. The greatest kind when God's word is found, and heard how it brings light into one's life. Good to find this here.
ReplyDeleteLove that you found the answers in the best book ever!
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